Girls: Which one are You?

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Sunday's afternoon, still raining. I'm cuddling my flesh into my hospital-type blanket. But I'm not in a hospital. Just lay my ass over the bed. I'm quite an eccentric-odd gal.

I actually recognized few characteristic of gals around me. My collection of colleagues are ingenious. So, which one are You?

1. A gal who appeared pretty and feminine but her room is so messy-bessy.

2. A gal who appeared normal and cool but her mind is wicked and twisted.

3. A gal who appeared plain and boring but deep down she's a femme-fatale.

4. A gal who appeared strong and seductive but the truth is, she's so fragile and lost.

5. A gal who appeared well behave and sweet but sometimes she went crazy any time.

6. A gal who appeared with mind-preacher and good words but basically she did the opposite ways.

7. A gal who appeared weak and low but she has the strongest heart to bear the pain.

8. A gal who appeared odd and eccentric but she's actually honest and easy going.

9. A gal who appeared happy and bubbly but she has quite a complicated life.

10. A gal who appeared nice and friendly but surprisingly she's a backstabber.

11. A gal who appeared in style and up to date but still wondering about her own identity.

12. A gal who appeared bright and cunning but still seeking the best thing in her.

13. A gal who appeared usual and geek but her imagination is borderless.

14. A gal who appeared good and natural but might be very secretive and surprisingly crooked.

15. A gal who appeared straight and damn obedient but she screamed like hell in her own mind.

16. A gal who appeared crazy and impractical but actually she knows the limit of her foolishness.

17. A gal who appeared dark and wild but she has a kindhearted that no one could see.

18. A gal who appeared rich and capable but never feel satisfied in everything.

19. A gal who appeared poor and incompetent but dream so high in everything.

20. A gal who appeared classy and connoisseur but at the same time, she's weirdo.

21. A gal who appeared conventional and harmless but might be dangerous in a matter of time.

22. A gal who appeared boyish and rough but actually she's a girl in her heart.

23. A gal who appeared older than her age but no one would knows that she's a child in her mind.

24. A gal who appeared simple and ordinary but hey, she's a dynamite.

25. A gal who appeared too well in career but so bupkus in relationship.

26. A gal who appeared hardworking and diligent but basically she has a low self-esteem.

27. A gal who appeared cheerful and attractive but didn't realized she wants the appreciation.

28. A gal who appeared brave but she has an obvious weak spot.

29. A gal who appeared to know everything but hell, she didn't know her own self.

30. A gal who appeared big but all in all, she's inferior.

There are so many girl-type around us. I just realized few. How often we open our eyes and check out the littlest things that shape the environment? Just few.

@themagi2014

Your Daily Regret

Everyday, we regret something we did and sometimes we thought, "If only I didn't do that, it would be great." However, regret always come later whenever we made the decision. Some regrets were big, some were small but no matter what kind of size your regret was, the repetition, consequences or the circumstances, regret is always a regret.

So, do you have something you regret yesterday, or a day before that or another day before that? Check out some list.

You feel so regret about:

• You forgot to zip your pant after you come out from public toilet.
• You thought your make-up is great so that why people keep looking at you but the fact is you create a worse thing on your face.
• You trust that fella but later that fella betrays you.
• You thought you did the best in test and expecting a very good result however you just able to get C.
• You believed so hard about your long lasting relationship and happy together with your soul mate but later, he/she cheated you, just like that.
• You pick a wrong food yesterday, and pick the same wrong food on the other by accident.
• You thought you're great in game but actually you're not.
• Your favourite soccer team didn't score any goal after a long match with the opponent.
• You stay all night, just to wait your favourite show on TV but suddenly the show has cancelled.
• You say a thing which is a secret.
• You misunderstand your family or friends.
• You just can't believe you were failed in things you loved the most.
• You hate yourself after spending so much in shopping complex. Now, you're broke.
• You didn't do anything right, and everyone scolded you.
• You eat too much, stomach ache and meet difficulties to take a dump, even the smallest one.
• You slip and smack on the floor so hard in front of public because of your new shoes.
• You're being scolded by your parent in front of your aunties and uncles.
• You doing shameless thing without using your brain to think first.
• You acted so hard in order to attract a guy/girl you liked but at the end, they just hate you.
• You blew up the kitchen because of your first attempt to cook.
• You're left by bus because you thought that bus would stop nearly.
• You didn't understand the things that people were talking but you refused to ask and talk like you know, but you don't.
• You borrowed some money yesterday, but you have to borrow again because you're unable to settle your previous debt wisely.
• You bet hard about something but then you lose.
• You didn't know why you have to go out when you didn't buy anything or know where you want to go.
• You don't understand yourself why you did the mistakes, although it was obviously a mistake.
• You know that fella always stab your back [not literally] but you still have faith to trust him/her.
• You bought something you want but later you noticed you didn't used it frequently, or used it very well.
• You bought something but later you realized the item has a very bad review.
• You went out for a vacation but being robbed, or being tricked or disappointed by the sudden event.
• You went to join a reunion but your all classmates were sucks.
• You met your old friend but they acted like they didn't know you at all.
• You choose a wrong day to go out for picnics/hangout.
• You choose a wrong guy/girl right after you're engaged.
• You choose a wrong toilet bowl right after you take out your shit.
• You wear a wrong cloth at the wrong event.
• And you regret every smallest thing you did and you feel ashamed about it everyday.

So, what's your daily regret?

#tmg2013

Grown up and challenges

To live as a grown up person is very difficult, especially in this century. Time flies really fast, life becomes extremely in speed and everything is highly in demand. You lived to expect the expectation. And also, a lot of people lived in asylum because of this. To be honest, I feel tired to lived like this. But there's no other way, I have to move on. There's no road to make a turn and became a child for once again.

In order to fit in this kind of society, you have to rush. You have to breakFAST, QUICK lunch and dinner, but mostly people like supper because they have to finish this and that during dinner time. I thought, can you just sit there and watch me properly without running here and there? Hey, I know, money is important these days. Everything needs money. I know that more than anyone because I have a short of money right now but it doesn't mean that people just went out without looking what's left behind?

These days, without challenges, you have no guts. That's a glory word from sages. But with challenges, you are difficult. You did something, but nothing's come out right, you joined a business but then it doesn't help you, you seek a job but they refused to hire you, you tried everything to reach your goal but at the end, you're just a loser. The great people used to say good things about something and something, but that's because they're already succeeded. Try to think if they're in continuous failure and then died? I don't think those wisdom would spread to us, right? But at least, for those who still fighting their problems, I guess they have guts, a big one.

Everyone, when they were little would expect a good life is ahead. They talked about a dream job, a dream house, a dream of dream in dream of dream. Dream is like drinking water, if you don't drink water for a week, you'll die. From every kind of dream, there's a hope and effort come together. Those were positives. It tranquilized your nerves and pulses. But there is no way for us to get everything easy. Easy comes with challenges, you have to fight them first or just die. You see? Life is a battle. We did it since we're so little, as a sperm. 

I often feel tired these days. Maybe what I did is not turning out very good. And people just saw me as I am nothing. If only I can screamed in their ears and said, "just mind your own business..!", it would be sweet. Again, people around you is also a challenge. Not everyone sincerely understand your problem because they saw you as one of their problem too. They're too busy living and too busy dying and too busy earning and too busy in everything. Why would you think they might pay some attention to listen to your problem. Actually, you are the one who listen to your own problem. So, I recommended you, build a wall in your ear. Just let them talk whatever they want because they never saw you crying and you never saw them crying.

At the end, everyone lived in their problems. How to resolve the problem?

That's the challenge.

#tmg2013

CELEBRITY: The Cup of Rules

According to Merriam Webster, celebrity is an important, well-known and celebrated person in his or her field (cooking, acting, designing or anything that makes them famous). Being a celebrity is like living with fame and glam. However, there are cup of rules to become the genuine celebrity. So--

#FirstCup

Celebrity must look pretty. They are a public image. Either they choose to receive love and praises, or hatred and curses, that's the choice they only have. So, they have to live with it.

#SecondCup

Celebrity must be responsible- to any word they speak, to any action they take and to anybody they meet. Whether the things that happen to them is good or bad, acceptance is the first step to become a responsible person.

#ThirdCup

Celebrity must well-behave. Their behaviour will determine the whole life and carrier. Good things are often being forgotten but bad things will always being remembered, as the worse scene of all time.

#FourthCup

Celebrity must be friendly. It shows that they have a great network with society and well-blend to everyone. To whom that are not very friendly, for sure the fame and glam might be difficult to sustain for a long time.

#FifthCup

Celebrity must be honest. Honesty makes people trust them. Nothing's come so great when they choose to lie because one day, people will know the truth.

#SixthCup

Celebrity must have knowledge. Knowledge will help them to be rational to any decision. Without knowledge, they are just like a pretty box without a gift inside.

#SeventhCup

Celebrity must smile. Smile makes them reachable. And reachable means, more income. And more income means, the favorite. So, the favorite means, they're lovable.

#EighthCup

Celebrity must grateful. Grateful teaches them to accept who they are and what they had received from others. Grateful will help them to stay longer in society.

#NinthCup

Celebrity must have disciplines. Disciplines make them well-organized to any action or words. It makes them grateful to accept offers, responsible in their work, knowledgeable to manage anything, honest to everyone, friendly to surrounding, and beautiful in everyone's eyes.

#TenthCup

The last one, celebrity must have patience. Patience is the most important thing to determine the result of their  life--for being a celebrity.

So celebrities, do you have this cup in your life?

#tmg2013

Life as a Woman

Female is the opposite sex of male, or girl and also known as a woman (or women in plural). Being a woman is the ultimate dream for transgenders but they never experience the real life of a woman. For example:

1. Woman have to face the monthly crime (period crime). That time is not so easy as men always thought. We're talking about blood here.

2. Woman have to face the pain to bear a children (no men can feel this even they saw it, literally).

3. Woman have to work extra time (mother, daughter, wife, cleaner, chef, teacher, accountant etc)

4. Woman have to face the risk of sexual harassment (at the office, along the road, inside the bus- you knew that, didn't you?)

5. Woman have to be careful about the risk of breast cancer (the percentage of men to get this is very low)

6. Woman have to face the risk of getting into someone's topic (gossip~)

7. Woman have to be brave buying their stuff (because usually women's underwear is not in a package and most of it is out of the shop).

8. Married woman have to face the risk of getting cheated or disloyalty issue; unmarried woman have to face the risk of being criticized; while the widow woman have to face the risk of being hated by all married women around her.

9. Woman have to be more sensitive in cleanliness (because women are involved in few dirtiness issue in their life)

10. Woman have to face the external beauty issue (men likes pretty girls and that's the pressure)

11. Woman have to face the limited age of 'being fresh' (35 years old and above is considered as 'too ripe').

12. Woman have to spend huge for self-maintenance (slimming session, collagen treatment, breast job, nose job, all kind of pretty job to keep in youth..)

13. Woman have to meet a typical accusation; being a barren. 

14. Woman have to pay and care more in their dignity (because that's the value)

15. Woman have to control the desire of spending  because they often bought more than they need.

16. Woman have a limited reach area whenever they go (safety issue~)

17. Woman have to be careful in marriage issue (hated by in law or being hated by law)

18. Woman have to be clever (because that's a backup package in the future--dependable caused trouble if something's happened)

19. Woman have to be in their nature (because they're live to expect the expectation).

20. Woman have to be loyal to their partner until they died (because when women cheated, the value of her 'womanity' has decreased into the lowest level, and the situation is different when it happens to men--get it?)

Life as a woman, that's how they lived and grow.

#tmg2013

Kids, being an adult is great but it sucks~

Dear kids, being a kid is innocent. The best part is look young. I loved being kid even my father was so stern and controlled by my queen mother. I know, there's a rule of yes-and-no for kids, and stuck between orders and desire. Kids have no key of freedom. But sadly (for me), kids nowadays are having a terrible moment to appreciate their youth. They seek to be an 'adult-wannabe' faster than they should. For those kids who suddenly stumbling into this post, is that so hard for you to handle your youth? Being an adult like me, I hope that my youth can be repeated. You know why being a kid is great?

First, kids do a lot of mistakes but being forgiven. The worse thing kids might accept when they do wrong is the scream and shout, a bit of slap on the butt and in the end, they received hugs, sweets and toys. Kids, you know what adults will receive when they make mistakes?--a punch, a lot of curses, abandonment issues, put in jail, divorce, being expelled, kick out, get fired or worse of all, sentence to death.

Second, kids have a half of a price when they go at the amusement park, riding a bus, going somewhere that involved tickets, while adults have to pay full score. Isn't that great? I missed that moment. Now I have to pay full score for all my tickets.

Third, kids being protected by laws. If someone treat them badly, they have laws to secure them. So adults, think about abusing? Beware, iron bars might be your shelter for several years.

Fourth, no one care when kids eat a lot, or looks messy, or playing Legos, or run here and there, or gibberish, or look childish or to put it in simple, no one care when kids being like a kid because they're kids anyways. That's normal for them to look it in that way. But when adults did that, I think that they're fully retarded.

Fifth, kids often received praises and good words in order to help them to build the confidence and self esteem, while adults have to spent their day hearing bad words, depression at work, and get stress. Scary, isn't it?

Sixth, kids don't have to worry about debts and loans. They just asked whenever they want from their parent, and adults have to pay everything then losing their hair for each passing days.

Seventh, kids have a great imaginary future with flowers, love and care in their mind, while adults can't sleep or eat or pee-and-poo when they think about their long-curvy-and-doubtful future. 

Eighth, kids almost not afraid with anything. They can pick bugs and make it as a brooch, digging for worms, don't care about germs, hygiene and whatsoever. The biggest reason why kids suddenly afraid is adults revealed the truth. Adults are the real 'chickenest' group--they afraid of supernatural, debts, car petrol, groceries, diamond ring, marriage, commitment, house price, divorce et cetera.

Ninth, kids don't care very much about feelings. They played, they stumbled, they cried, they fight, they screamed, they saw ice-cream man, they ran, they buy ice-cream, they shared, and then they become friends again. You know what adults will do? Break up--cried for 7 days and 7 nights, holding a revenge, commit suicide or spending several months OR years for self-motivation, self-reflection and self-enlightenment. Divorce--legal parenting issues, money issues, or maybe avenged issues. Split up--keep wondering why people hate them, backstabbing, betraying and spreading rumours. That's the world for adults.

Tenth, kids don't realize about death. They just knew life is wonderful and when they suddenly died, they died without sins and purely innocent. You know what's death for adults? Everything's about loan, work position, spouse's dishonesty, money to pay fees, house payment, the terrible past-life--smoking, commit adultery, stealing, betraying, bullying or anything that caused them 'dirty'. Those thoughts give them the idea, "please God, I'm not ready to die yet." So, do kids think about this? No.

Eleventh, kids have their own day; the Children's Day. That's the day where all kids being appreciated officially. And adults? Just one day to say--Labor Day; a day for adults being appreciated as a worker, not for the unemployed one.

Twelfth, maybe this is the best of all, kids have their precious youth. It happens once and never turn back, while being old is must and nothing will stop the age to move and tick with the clock. As usual, adults tried very hard to chase the youth with money and fame, but they couldn't return the real pearl. So what on earth kids trying so hard being an adult? They will be an adult one day. 

So kids, enjoy your youth, appreciate your innocence and lived your life like you should do. Being an adult is great, but it sucks~

#TMG2012

Hey, Single...watch your Double~

Being single is one of my kind for a very long time, living in my single-dom world and enjoying stuffs like single people would do; stay a lot at home, eat alone, hang out with friends and families, no worries about phone calls or something like that and the best part is, freedom. For so many years, I've been surrounded by doubles...I mean, my friends in relationship, and I've been watching them, the way they behave and talk, absolutely. And for all these years, I had enjoyed on the audience's seat, with my imaginary pop corn and watch this double-ship show quietly.

13 year-old was the earliest involvement in double-ship among my friends and some of them got pretty serious when they're in 17-19, whereas I was still playing legos or poker,  wipe my mucous with my shirt and stuffing foods inside my mouth like a bulldozer (I had problems to act like a decent girl in my age). I think that's my psychological disease of seeking my childhood who left me in the dark (don't mention it). No offense, but, being double is not so easy. They called it 'young age is somehow, a stupid stage to learn the truth being double'. Even I have so-so and so little facts about double-ship things but as far as I can remember, there's something that they often did during my observation such as:

1. Couples often made calls and texting over the night, to say how much they love each other but to be honest, they were worried about bills or topup they should pay to sustain the relationship.
2. Couples often invite their double for brunch, dinner and shopping but they can't stop thinking whether this investment for double-ship is worthy or not.
3. Couples often say that 'long distance double-ship' is testing their patience and love, they often fight like hell over the phone call (jealousy activated).
4. Couples often say that 'short distance double-ship' is good to sustain their heart better, but they had problems to trust each other.
5. Couples often say that 'being double is happy' but they often shed tears more than smiling.
6. Couples often tell everyone they feel grateful being in double-ship, but seriously, they can't stop grumbling at the back, even they loved each other but still...grumbling.
7. Couples often did something similar but they often feel like there's a small battle between them.
8. Couples often go for movies but one side often feels terrible with the story line, but couldn't say a word because they loved each other (true story)
9. Couples often refuse to listen somebody's advice because they always thought they're right but when something happens, they couldn't admit the truth and swallowed their pride in pain.
10. Couples always missing each other but when they meet up, they often questioning more than nice chatting.
11. Couples often say 'YES' but deep in their heart, there's 'NO' that couldn't come out (just buried between those layered of sugar-coated words).
12. Couples often say that 'long double-ship' helps them to know each other better and greater, but they often complaint about each weaknesses they've learned in each passing days.
13. Couples often say that 'short double-ship' helps them to learn to understand each other, but they often surprised what is waiting upon them (so, keep surprise~)
14. Couples often give advises to those who single, but the truth is-- all advises are for them, to remind themselves.
15. Couples often dreaming about marriage (serious couple only) but money issues are much bigger than missing their love one.
16. Couples like to brag about their double-ship but often silence like a dead wood when they've broke up.
17. Couples love sharing everything but not all couples are ready or willing to share their biggest secret.
18. Couples always praised their love one but the truth is, after a certain years they will start comparing their double-ship to the other double-ship (which ship is better?)
19. Couples like to share their story with others but they couldn't bear to hear anything in the past when they broke up.
20. Couples knew that being double-ship is all about loyalty but some of it still joining 'the hunting-trip'. To put it simple, 'you got cheated'.
21. Couples always say that marriage is the victory of their love but they often slipped the victory after they got the legal paper.
22. Couples often changed even they can't admit they're already changed.
23. Couples willing to do everything but some of them asking for some return (y u no the news of baby on the street is so cranky these days~)
24. Couples often vowed for their love, but some of it might be blown away in a matter of time (I don't know about this but somehow, it happens a lot---my friend experienced this)
25. At this point, those couples (who read this) will reminisce the old ships who left by when they were young, so I will stop the list at here...et cetera, et cetera~

As a single person, sitting at the corner of love-hate things that happened out of my control, sweet and sour of faces I saw every time I took a slightly glance, and for whispers and shouts I have to bear as an audience of love battlefield. For those passing years I had submerged into these courses, between all doubles I couldn't speak or advice, nor listen to what I want to say, being double means "double activated" and the conversation was often slides from the subject. So yes, I did put them away (not so far, but away from my single business) because being single like mine is a "vertigo"; hating handcuffs, freedom surfing, jolly flapping, undisturbed decision or D.I.Y jumping jack to have something with my own skins and fingers (if you know what I mean).

All in all, watching doubles in double-ship is not something so bad, I've learned something (I do valued the hardworking people who contributed my knowledge), the good things and mistakes that should not be done by single-ship. Well, Single..watch your Double out there.  That's the fundamental of understanding the body language and mind-working.

"For single, being single is a lesson of life...for double, being double is a person of life"

#TMG2012

The Power of 'NO'

'NO' is the simple word the begin the argument and to emphasize a negative statement--basically the short word of disagreement, to refuse, to avoid, and to deny. 'NO' is also associate with manner of certain degree of human, or someone's initial but that is NOT the thing I want to discuss. To say 'NO' isn't easy (I know, I tried), especially to refuse someone in trouble as for worst of the worst--you lose someone or something you loved the most. But if troubles happened without saying 'NO', try to familiarize yourself with this word.

Okay, let's see....

'NO' is a very strong word to off the conversation, the way to stop the things you didn't want to hear (maybe it sounds idiot, bored, not interesting and as usual---spiteful), comparable with minus attitudes to resist someone or something and often been called as protester. Remember the major division in Christianity--Protestant? Back in 16th century, Martin Luther, a German Augustinian friar, published 95 theses about the new division of Christianity and refused the rule of Roman Catholic (one of the biggest protest in the history) Back to the old days in Europe, the Catholic priests were swanky, cold blooded, lustful with women and wine---and money. So, that was 'NO-NO' situation, the biggest 'NO' will win. Even up to these days, the internal cold war happens between the border of the earth and beyond. The truth--there are no questions for this negative statement because every human is born with 'NO' and 'YES'...but I won't talk about 'YES' right now.

People used to say 'NO' a lot in one day (start counting now) and it happened continuously in relationship -marriage, engaged, friendship whatsoever. This magical word emerged through subjects and questions which becomes the main stock for the argument such as when your mom asking where did you go last night? Having fun at the club eh? For those who knew that their parent will cut their expenses if they say 'YES'.. 'NO' might be better to say...so hurrah, one point...'NO' means 'YOU LIED', as I did quite often to shorten the answer and to avoid using lengthy words. 

But sometimes, think about it...

YES is positive but there's a bit of infirmity and shortcoming...

NO is negative but well, it's firm, persistent and tenacious

MAYBE is an option but there's too much hesitation and indecision.

So, listen...

The power of 'NO' is deep inside yourself. Find it and apply. Once you have mastered the skills, this super power will be yours =)

"Half of the troubles of this life can be traced by saying yes too quickly and not saying 'no' soon enough" [Josh Billings]

#TMG2012

Being Old is Gold =)

"Everyone is the age of their heart"--Guatemalan Proverb

Old, the mellow phase and the golden age for humans. You can't help getting older, (unless you're Benjamin Button) but you don't have to get old. What's the point to feel worse with your age? That's normal. Wrinkles were the experience lines you had gained throughout your life. And each line represents your hardship, your joy and consistency. Of course, the more you getting old, the more you lose something (the beauty of youth, if that's bothering you) but wide your eyes now, be grateful. Not everyone can enjoy that precious golden age.

Okay, what so great being old? Why people working so hard with medical fixation these days?--nose job, fillers, plastic surgery whatsoever.  Why being old is still unacceptable? To be honest, being old is not the issue, it is YOU who refuse to receive the fact. Be like my mom, she's cool when her menstrual month had stopped. She didn't work like hell to look young. She said, no matter what age she is, her heart is always young. Besides, youth is the age of struggling, and old is the age of resting. Nice mom, your'e doing a great job.

Now, the best thing being so golden is--

• It teaches you to not repeat the mistake that you did when you're young.
• It makes you appreciate everything around you.
• It makes you feel good with yourself (because you're the antique and antiques are precious)
• It helps you to realize the point of your life. What's the alternative being old? You'll die anyway so just enjoy your age gracefully.
• Being old is the better option, which is being dead.
• Old age helps you to handle temptation.
• It makes people respect you more and treat you well (especially at hospital).
• It enhance your senses of religion (your time is getting shorter so it's better to remember where's your God)
• It makes you realize you're still alive (and have a chance to get Facebook).
• It helps you to be more wise.
• It helps you to stop few silly habit that you did when you're young.
• It makes you less in desire and stop conquer everything you see.
• It gives you the precious experience and memories in your life that can never be replaced.
• Being old makes you realize you can integrate all different areas in your life and calm mindset.
• It makes more ideas in your head.
• Being old does not diminish the extreme disappointment about the small things.
• Being old cures your hardship and matures your life.
• Old age is the last chance for you to roll the dice and flip the card.

So, guys, fear not to old. You're not death yet. Wrinkles may crossed you and the beauty keeps fading.  However, you did try your best fulfilling your life and that's the beauty of your age- the beauty of long road of opportunities.

It is autumn; not without

But within me is the cold.

Youth and spring are all about;

It is I that have grown old. 

[Henry Wadsworth Longfellow-Autumn Within]

MaGi2012.

Hidden versus Honest Motivation

Greetings...

Today I want to make a short intro about my post (bcuz short is simple to absorb). This is about quotation and how it helps us to motivate ourselves to dive through this life journey. Therefore, I even engraved my patience and confidence by saying those quotations like chanting a spell.  There were two kind of motivation that been used by humans since the day of King Tut's reign until Queen E's kingdom. It was been created according to the situation I had involved in the past; the differences between hidden motivation (using a soft-inspiring word to motivate) and honest motivation (a little bit real and a little bit rough). So, let's have a look.